Training 10/1

After the failure on Monday, my course of action was to retry 265 Wednesday, succeed, and hit 275 Friday. Unfortunately, that plan hit a bit of a snag. I felt good going into the session - sleep was not what it needed to be, but nutrition to that point in the day was on point, I was feeling good going into the warmup, all seemed poised for success. I went back to what I was doing for warmups a few years ago - lots of movement, animal walks, calisthenics, and added in some box jumps to wake me up a bit more. After some good warmups, I got under the bar and started going. At 9 reps I decided I "just didn't have it" and racked the bar. As I sat on the bench contemplating jumping off a bridge, I decided to rest a few more minutes and give it another go. Feeling fully rested, I tried again, but failed on rep 16. While it was a solid try, it was the same psychological failure as last time. While I tried to think positively, I basically told myself before descending that if it was tough, I wasn't getting back up. Sure enough, that's what happened.
So I've decided these next 4 days will be a restorative mini-block. I've had quite a bit of stress in my life lately, and as we know, stress is cumulative. So I'll use the next 4 days to perform quite a bit of aerobic work, contrast showers, catch up on sleep, and use some heating and anti-inflammatory ointments if need be to prepare for Monday. Friday I will still lift, though more along the lines of a "typical" bodybuilding-type day.
Note that none of this is to excuse what happened. It was a psychological failure, and I will continue to beat myself up for it. But 265 will come and go, as will 275.